Promoted

To be honest..today I felt like I'm gonna eat everything and everyone in front me. I dunno how to explain how hurt my feeling. People may saw me happy, laughing and smiling a lot but deep down on my heart..there is huge hurt feeling.
Call me childish or immature or anything u like but I still feel like they treat me unfair.

Last week my boss ask us to fill in the appraisal form. Okay..as usual I will fill in the form..but this time I have a strong feeling that I need to be promoted due to I'm already work here 2 year plus. I really put my hope on high. One of my colleague was promoted last appraisal and she also work here around 2 year plus. I thought they will promoted me as well this time but no. Not at all. They promoted others colleague and damn they not even reach 2 year working here. Totally upset and I can feel my heart beating so fast.

The reason why they promoted the others and not me is their work is so tidy and they independent on their task. So how bout me? My work is not tidy? I can't deliver my task on time? I need to kacau others to make sure my task done? Come on!!! Some work I do by myself and u even dunno how to do it and I not qualified for getting promoted??. Some other thing is they said they will fight for one of my colleague whose working longer than me.

Seriously?? I end up keep questioning myself..did I perform well here? Do I achieve their target? Which area that I need to improve? To be honest...I totally lost my confidence over my work and myself. They should promote me okay! I think I qualified to get promoted!!!!

Should I start to search other better opportunity now??

Updating

Long time no see dah ruangan blog ni. Almost forgotten dah kot.  

Teringin sangat nak delete profile tapi sayang pula 😂 . Semalam one of my Instagram follower (unknown person aka stranger) Tanya kenapa dah lama x update blog entry. I was shocked cuz I thought nobody would like to read what I saying and write here. Some more, there is no interesting topic and my stories also is quite boring. Follower claim that she became my silent reader and she said my story is fun to read..lol. Thanks a lot ,my silent reader. Okay...apa yg patut saya tulis sekarang. 😰😰😰😰 ? Hurm..no idea for now la. Hehe. I will update my blog later on la ye. Lol

Bertudung

First of all..I'm so sorry to write an entry like this. Saya Tak ada attention lain, ya I realize who am I to talk bout it, I not even a muslimah. I just want to share what I saw and what I listen.
Alkisahnya begini...petang tadi masa tunggu tren,ada dua org mak cik saling berbisik2 sambil jeling2 gadis bertudung yg duduk sebelah dorang. Ala kita tau la tu dorang tengah soseh2 pasal gadis sebelah tu. For 1st time I saw, dalam hati bermonolog "apalah mak cik dua org ni tgh bisik2?" Saya perhati gadis tu pula..Hurm seems like nothing wrong with her, why the mak cik really kepoh one. A few minutes later tren sampai so semua naik. Kebetulan saya berdiri depan mak cik dua org tu and the gadis tadi berdiri sebelah saya. Her perfume..gosh sangat wangi.to be honest love her Smell. And then saya perhati mak cik dua org tu lagi. Masih lagi x habis2 bisik2, gelak2 and then always ckp kuat2 mcm menyindir.
I heard them said "x Malu bagi org lain Tgo aurat dia". To be honest..saya ingat dia talk bout me, yala saya kan pakai skirt and lengan pendek. Dalam hati dah start emo dah. Lepas tu I perasan gadis sebelah saya tu mcm rimas Dan balik2 mencebik. A few minutes later gadis tu tiba2 melenting Dan ckp "sibuk Hal orang, mengumpat tu sama dengan membunuh"...Lepas dia ckp mcm tu dia beralih tempat Jauh sikit. Lepas tu sorang daripada mak cik soseh2 tu menyahut. "Kita Tak mengata pun...tulah lain Kali xpayah pakai tudung tu". And then gadis tu menjawab lagi "ko tu malaikat Sgt la...pakai tudung tp mulut mcm puaka". I was in middle of them...blur xtau apa yg dh terjadi. Orang dlm tren almost Chinese pn terpinga.
And then gadis tu dh Geram sangat dia pusingkan belakang dia. And then I was like a lil bit surprise la. Oo baru saya faham kenapa mak cik ni bisik2, rupa2nya gadis tu pakai baju transparents, dah tu Lupa pakai singlet dalam. Nampak jelas color bra dia merah. What wrong kalau dia pakai baju color krim yg transparent?? Do u aware that earlier of this entry I have mentioned that she is gadis bertudung. And as I know..the way she wearing baju like that is so not suitable.
Saya ada ramai kawan2 muslimah yg bertudung and they are lovely. I may not fully understand the hukum but as they told me(I have ask them) menutup aurat is kewajipan. Correct me of I wrong dear friends. For me..gadis tu perlu sensitive dengan pemilihan baju dia, somemore please put ur respect to ur tudung. Saya tengok mmg x sesuai sebab u cover u hair but then u show u back and even u body. Okay..maybe today she wake up late and then terlupa pakai singlet or inner. Tapi x ada ke kawan2 dia tegur?. At least bagitau her baju too striking and then pinjamkan dia sweater or kardigan or selendang untuk dia tutup badan dia.
Dalam tgh Kalut2 ..tiba2 ada seorang mak cik free hair amik selendang dia dari her bag and hulur to that girl. I can see the girl almost tearing..1st place dia tolak and then mak cik free hair tu berkeras juga and then she take and wear the selendang. So touching bila tengok ni..the mak cik free hair dari td Baca buku saja tp rupa2nya she listen everything.
Everyone on the tren was silent. I learn something today from this scene. Take action! When someone talk non stop bout something but did not take action it's was nothing. when u mouth close but ur heart listen and u take action it was amazing. Mak cik dua orang tu suppose baling batu depan2 secara lembut. Cara macam ni lagi menusuk kalbu daripada baling batu belakang2 and then kasar. I dun know bout ur but I prefer orang tegur kesilapan saya secara depan2 Dan Bukan secara kasar.
Conclusion is please aware bout u attire..don't make people gossiping bout that, make it suitable. Do not talk bad bout people..we do not what she facing this morning. If can't Tahan to watch..why not go and tell her properly. This is no use to sindir2 and hurt other feeling. Be kind..take action.

***sorry again if entry ni menyinggung anda..no hard feeling.

Pencarian calon suami

Yes it's true...tajuk entry saya x salah hahaha. To be honest, I feel a bit tension when my parents bug me with this. Setiap Kali call cerita pasal kawan2 kampung or sekolah dah bertunang,kawin or dah beranak. Alaaa..u knew it too, dorg bagi hint Kat saya. Ya I aware bout that but what to do if I really dun have any. Kalau saya balik kampung pun..certain of orang kampung pun yang prihatin terhadap diri ni akan Tanya. "So how..bila?". Aiyoo..jawapan selamat saya is "belum ada lagi, just help to pray".  Dun get me wrong ya..saya below 30 tapi memandangkan culture Kat kampung tu anak2 gadis kawin before 30 so kena hadap la dengan Benda mcm ni.
Makanya..dengan tu saya start sekarang ingin mencari calon suami. Hahaha. Slow slow la kan..Tak de la sampai nak berhusband terus main YES I DO je. Criteria saya simple je.
1. Ada kerja tetap x kira gomen or swasta. Kalau ada bisness sendiri yg dh stabil tu kira bonus k.
2. Menghormati Dan penyayang kepada anak2 and org tua.
3. Bertolak ansur.
4. Membimbing saya dalam soal agama.
5. Kalau semua di atas tu dah ada tapi candidate pula beragama lain, kenalah bagi tunjuk ajar,teladan Dan semangat untuk saya memahami agama tersebut. Saya x nak convert kerana perkahwinan. Takut nanti Lepas kawin saya apa pun x tau...Lepas tu confuse Dan tu kan boleh rosakkan diri saya.

Walau apa pun...I just surrender to God. Hopefully I meet someone.

*Malu pula saya buat entry ni. Hahahahah

What I hate most

Selain daripada lintah dan cicak terbang..Benda yang paling saya benci dalam dunia ini ialah manusia SELFISH!!!!.
Golongan ini bagi pandangan saya ialah orang low class,tidak ada civik Dan tamadun.
Golongan yang bertamadun macam saya yang selalu menjadi mangsa kepada golongan selfish ni..wtf!.
In my workplace memang wujud manusia ini. Teringin nak terajang kuat2 pun ada juga. Teringin sangat nak maki orang tu tapi sebab jaga maruah sendiri Dan maruah orang tu so x maki. Sudahlah selfish, kuat mengampu pula tu..memang saya tensionlah.
Oleh yang sedemikian, saya bertekad untuk tidak bercakap Dengan si perempuan selfish tu. Totally pissed me off wtf!
By the way..i'm officially looking for the jobs. Too much la my superior. Tau nganga Saja. User cakap mcm ni dia setuju...x review langsung flow dia. Title job saya BI analyst and specialist...bukannya specialist admin. Haihhh...ni kena print,courier Dan sort data guna excel pula. Dah la project byk Kat tangan. Lepas tu kena deal dengan CTOS,BNM Dan CCRIS..sepatutnya user yg kena deal tapi Aku juga kena. Barbie!!!

Missing you

Missing someone so much..can't deny it anymore. It's makes me feel like I'm drowning into a very deep sea water. My soul became empty and bitter. Don't know why I keep missing that person.
Dear old me...I really missing you. I don't know something keep disturbing me. It's look like I'm doing lot of bad thing in my past. So it's keep me missing my old self.
Guys don't get me wrong..zaman kanak2 and remaja saya is fantastic, enjoyable and happy. Just..just...arghh really hard to explain this feeling btw.
Maybe I had done something horrible, stupid or crazy that time but I'm not sure what is it. I'm insane is it??

Warm welcome 2014

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE...

Hola 2014,

Wah..time goes to fast. This year my age become 26 year old. Gosh I really hate being old. As everyone else..I also wish that my life would be good. Hope that I will more focus on my goal this year. Too many target that I can't do last year. I hope this year my life start improve from so so to be much better than ever.
Thanks God for the blessed and anugerah that He give to me. Really love it walaupun sederhana tapi ia nya sempurna.
Resolution for this year..definitely to makes money. Buy some property for myself (hope can do it). Lebih banyak buat kebajikan kepada org ramai, bkn sebab utk mendapat nama tapi utk kemuliaan Tuhan. Then..berdisiplin byr loan PTPTN ( last year sgt jarang bayar). Then..lebih beri perhatian kepada my parents. Argh..too many resolution and I can write it down one by one here. Uh oh...I want to find my soulmate. Cuz I targeting to get married on my age 27. Lol...

Dear 2013,

Thanks for being nice with me. Can't count my happiness time. Thanks God for the beautiful blessing and plan.

Stab my back or I stab u back

I love to be me...be humble..be caring..be love..be motivated..be giving..be smiley..be laugh..be good. Honestly, I really care what people would describe me with my image and my complicated personality. Kalau boleh, I dun want people labeling me as berlagak, sombong, bajet good good je. I Don't want to be fake. I love to be real me.
Tapi some of situation sangat mendesak saya untuk menjadi org lain...a different version of me. Damn it!. Let me tell u something...ada manusia yg suka tikam belakang org terutama dlm hal kerja. U pung pang ping do all the work alone but she or he claim that everything done by them. And you seems like doing nothing. Can u see that?? So before they stab u back better u cover u back with something nice and better. Be prepare...at least keep a few bahan bukti to prove that u do all the work. Being adult and working life is hard...but this is u reality. Nak x nak..kena hadap juga. My dad teach me to be patience..be kind with other altough they be bad to you. Show them love..God say love u enemy.

Kontot

Are u stress?? Oh no...we're in the same boat.
Saya ada a lil bit solution for this. U try pelihara kucing. Confirm stress u akan release sikit.
Last 3 week ago...saya mengambil seekor anak kucing serbian. Tak tahu macam mana boleh bertentang mata dengan anak2 kucing tu. Honestly, saya sangat2 mempersoalkan diri saya. Saya perlukan kucing lagi??? Si parsian tu kan ada. First sekali saya ignore perasaan teringin tu. Bila sampai rumah...makan tak kenyang, nak mandi pun tak basah. Haizz..terpaksa patah balik ke kedai haiwan tu.
Plan awal nak ambil kucing mata biru berbulu tengkuk hitam tu. Tapi pusing2 lagi kedai apek tu...terjumpalah si messy. Comel saja duduk mkn. Diam saja berbanding kucing2 lain yang bising meow meow. Hampir sejam juga dalam kedai tu...taukeh kedai tu siap kenalkan sekor2 kucing dia.
Lepas tu pandang kucing messy tu. Dia senyap saja sambil main bola kecil dalam kandang dia. Alahai..kucing ni senyap je. Bolehlah jadi geng si parsi tu. Lepas tu decided ambil dia.
Bawa balik rumah. 1 rumah dia pusing untuk mengenal rumah baru katakan. Masa dia pusing2 tu terperasan dia tu kontot. Saya gelak lepas tu panggil dia kontot. Masa kenalkan kontot dengan si parsi tu..amboi parsi tarik muka lepas tu blah g makan. Geram je dengan parsi tu. Makan lebih..tidur lebih..main kurang. Sombong betul dia dengan housemate baru dia.
Serius parsi tu dia tak pernah nak manja2 dengan saya. Yg dia tau makanan dia mesti ada. Tapi kontot ni kan...sgt manja..mengada2 tapi saya sgt suka. Saya nak g mandi dia ikut dan tunggu kat tepi pintu. Lepas tu kalau dia nak makan dia nak saya teman. Haha. Pagi2 jam 6 mesti naik atas badan saya suruh bangun.  Comel saja dia. Geram pun ada kdg2 sebab dia sgt2 lasak. Sampai wayar mouse laptop saya pun putus dibuatnya. Haizz...lasak sungguh. Beza benar dengan si parsi..parsi yg dia tau makan tidur saja. Dan yang paling kelakar tak pernah tengok kucing2 ni duduk sama2. Hahahah

Anything can happen

Thanks God for the beautiful and awesome plan that He giving to me...SYUKUR atas berkatMu.
There is too many thing that I did not expected happen to my life either is bad or good. But again I'm still bersyukur for everything happens. He know what the best for me.
Baru-baru ini..saya sedar yang saya tak pernah bermimpi untuk berkerjaya dalam bidang IT but then here I'am now. Thanks kepada kawan yang menyedarkan saya. That was happen masa lunch hour...we talk yada yada bara bara bere bere about our experience in this nature of business, sampailah experience zaman sekolah. That time I was blank...and I was just keep eating my meal and listen their wonderful story. Then one of my friend asking me bout mine story. Oo wait my story?? Adui..I don't have that kind of story. I told them...saya bukan terletak dalam kelas sains dan teknologi masa sekolah menengah. Saya masih ingat dengan jelas ranking kelas dahulu.

1st rank - sains tulen
2nd rank - ICT/sains dan teknologi
3rd rank - akaun
4th rank - sains sukan
5th rank - ekonomi
6th rank - sastera
7th rank - seni visual
8th rank - geografi
9th rank - pemulihan

For you information..saya berada di kelas paling 2nd last rank. Form 4 that time..but wait a minute. My PMR result is quite okay ya..7B 1C.  As I know,result saya boleh masuk dalam class 3rd rank tu. Will that time..I really don't like math apatahlagi add math or akaun. Damm it I dun like it too much. Still remember masa isi form untuk student pilih class pilihan hati masing2 (Sekolah saya dulu bagi student buat keputusan sendiri okay) saya tick class akaun sebab result saya rasa layak masa tu. 2nd class ekonomi. 3rd class baru sains sukan.  But then guru kelas akaun tu xnak saya sebab dia kata my math tak excellent. Okaylah..saya akur. Tapi 2nd choice pun tak dapat sebab saya dah terlambat. Kuota untuk class ekonomi dah full. Arghh...3rd class pun dah full. And you know what...orang yg dpt result 5c 2e pun boleh masuk sains sukan. Cikgu tak tapis betul2. Lastly saya pilih class geography..masa tu class ada 7 org sahaja. Dan semua pelajar2 dia pun nakal2 semuanya. Class pun buruk2. Bersebelahan dengan kelas pemulihan yang student dia btl2 nakal dan tak berapa nak belajar.Kotor pula tu...haizz. saya jadi ketua kelas masa tu. Tapi kan xsampai beberapa bulan class geography dibubarkan. So kami diminta pilih class. I feel insulted that time...malu pun ada juga. So my guru kelas letak saya at kelas sastera. Huh..masa pindah tu budak2 dekat class tu pandang xpuas hati saja dengan kami. What wrong with them? So class sastera  terpaksa memilih organisasi baru dan saya menjadi timbalan ketua kelas dat time.
Saya ni sudahlah class tak berapa famous..kokurikulum pun tak aktif sangat. Mana ada saya ikut sukan semua. Mana ada saya rajin ikut berpanas untuk latihan...bukan sebab saya tak sanggup berpanas tapi saya tak di bagi peluang dan saya lembap. Selalu nak join tp x dpt sebab dah penuh. So jadi penonton sajalah kan. Jadi sukarelawan sukan sajalah selalu.
So result SPM pun okay juga..dapat offer dari UITM KK utk diploma tp lupa course apa dorang offer tu. Saya gatal sangat nak perfi amik UITM tu tp my papa x bagi pula, dia kata i'm too young for that and saya ni tak pernah jauh dari mereka sejak dari kecil. Dia suruh continue study STPM. Okaylah...saya study STPM dlm class science sosial. Ambil 4 subject saja sebab saya akui saya malas belajar. Style saya masa belajar is dun study hard but study smart. Main lebih tapi result gempak...pergh moto saya dulu2(lol..xelok moto ni). Serius..waktu study saya lukis2 itu ini...mengelamun benda bodoh2. Borak dgn kawan2. Yg lain semua focus on their book. Me curi2 main sms lepas tu conteng2 kertas. Buat homework saja saya buat sungguh2.lol.
After finish STPM..dpt result. Apply UPU tapi xdapat. Lama tunggu..masa tu dah give up. Cita2 masa tu is became a teacher..kalau x pun nurse. Kalau x pun gomen staff. Lepas tu dpt surat 2nd offer kat USM tp surat tu lambat sangat sampai. Dpt surat tu hari ni esok last day register. Tak apa..sabar tunggu lagi. Apply kerja dengan gomen 1 pun x panggil. Setelah 2 bulan menunggu..akhirnya dtg satu surat
Quite interesting my dad said. No idea apa benda E- business technology and management masa tu. My dad pun suruh saya study situ..walaupun berat hati dia suruh saya pergi belajar jauh2 tapi saya rasa dia nak sangat tengok saya study. Saya pun masa tu tak menolak..ikut saja papa cakap. Ingat lagi 3 hari menangis rindukan rumah dan family. Every 3 hour everyday my papa call and I cry.
Saya motivate diri sendiri supaya be strong and study betul2...masa 1st time masuk kelas. Saya sgt2 blur apa pun xtau. Give up juga and terfikir nak quite juga that time tapi I dun know why, my brain still pushing me to be strong. Bertahan! ..so saya pun bertahan. Thanks God...saya dpt kawan2 baru yang baik2. Walaupun certain of them ada yang tak berapa nak baik but still bersyukur. Thanks GOd juga...saya xkena culture shock wlwpun saya jauh from my family and very freedom to do everything that I want to do. That why I told the other people...don't blame the culture or people soround you. Blame yourslef if you be effective by them.semua kena bermula dari diri sendiri. But satu saja yang saya regret...I did not study hard and smart. Still like zaman STPM and SPM...really hard utk buang habit tu and more worst sebab bebas utk nak or tak nak study. As I know ada homework saja buat. Assignment pun selalu buat last minute. Damm it...I really regret this part. Kalau bisa putar balik masa...saya nak be the rajin student that time and study with all my heart and strength.  Apa nak buat...gomen annouce lambat sangat utk bg pendidikan free utk student yg dpt result 1st class. Shame on me now..kena bayar hutang ptptn yang mcm tak berkurang wlwpun bulan2 bayar. I told you...tak kurang. Haiya...ni macam saya tanggung hutang the rest of my life lah.
But anyway....masih bersyukur. Hutang ptptn ni yg buat saya utk lebih berusaha dalam kerjaya. Setakat ni..saya hanya interview mana2 mesti dapat, hanya satu saja saya x lepas(sime darby). My 1st job dengan salah satu SAP partner malaysia...SAP tu. Org dgr pun dah wow (utk org yg tau pasal tool ni jelah). Dorg ckp wah gaji mahallah tu...excellent. hurm..xmau cakap byklah pasal gaji2 ni. Tapi SAP is the most good quality on BI tool so far. Setahun lebih dgn company ni. Saya decide to go sebab bosan sgt dgn company tu. Saya pergi interview dgn company worldwide milik salah satu syarikat elektronik Japan..terus dapat. Love the environment, g kerja serabai pun xapa, boss pun ok tapi sayang sgt sebab saya dpt bertahan utk 6 bulan saja sebab agak malang nasib saya masa tu..budak2 lama semua berhenti sorg2. So saya kena support sorg2 ERP team dan yg x tahan kena maki dgn user lepas tu stand by 24 hours. Tidur pun xcukup2. Weekend pun kena kerja. User call xkira siang, malam, mid night atau subuh2. My phone non stop  ringing. Argh...I have no life back there. No one want to support me. Alone and got bombed. Even if I'm on leave or MC..there still calling me to do my job.
Arghh...but still bersyukur. I really fall in love with kerjaya IT now. More I know them more I want to explore....there is no limit for me to learn. Call me greedy or whatever but I keep want my head full of knowledge.
1st job..I be a SAP BI specialist, more focus on reporting tool and my boss ask me to improve my communication and functional skill. I admit I feel I more better now. 2nd job I be as System analyst, basic for foxprox system, QAD or netterm system, unix, linux, sql server management, vb.net, C++, code on time and japan culture...argh thanks God for this experience and knowledge. My current job as BI data analyst, I got and sharp my skill on datawarehouse managment in SQL server, oracle (before I know u, I thought u harder than sql), AS400(love it) and IBM BI cognos reporting tool.  Arghh...I love IT job and I planning to take master in IT.
Thanks God for you plan..it's beautiful and suit me well. Never planning to have a job like this.
I never be shame to tell anyone who ask me bout my education background. Tak semestinya u in class science became a doctor or u in account class u became a accountant. Dun dare to tell me that people like me is not qualify to became a programmer or became one of IT slave. I'm sure I know the late famous steve job and bill gate. Google their education background and get the answer.
After saya cerita my education background..my friend keep.laughing at me. She said I'm too funny to be true. She said nonsense for some one can be a programmer without a basic. I almost saying that did you forgot the iphone that u use right now is created by whom  and his education background?..but my mouth not saying that because finally her laugh makes me realize that was a great plan that God given to me. Anything can happen...just surrender all to God. Sigh...bersyukur selalu adalah sifat yang baik.

Not a bad girl

So sad! When people@org kampung start talking bad about me. What wrong with them??? Am I buat jahat to them or accidentally I makes them sakit hati or what??
I also did not have any idea why they loves to gossiping me. Since I budak2 till now...I heard a bunch of bad story and version about me. Totally pissed me off...I'm too bad for them? Is it??
The most nonsense gossip that I heard from them is everynight I will be dating with a different guy and sent me home after dating. I'm totally clearly remember I was 10 year old that time. What the F...I'm a innocent lil kid that time, how come they can come out with this story.
The recent spreading rumor about me is sugar daddy bela me here at KL. Oh my gosh..are u serious? Do u ask someone to spying me here?? Are u really die hard fan of me?? Get a life folks!! I told ya...kalau betul sugar daddy bela me, napa I kena kerja, pakai kereta local...nak shopping pun fikir 2 3 kali.
Poor me...me orang yg sgt hormat orang lain, tak pernah menyusahkn suku sakat dorg. Napa dorang selalu menyusahkan saya. God bless them.

Confirm lagi

Times goes too fast..sedar tak sedar dah 4 bulan saya kerja company ni. Serius tak perasan, rasa macam baru seminggu yang lalu saya start kerja. Rabu lepas saya dapat email dari HR...saying that I confirm and became a permenant staff. Thanks God...again saya confirm dan jadi permenant staff. Harap2 dapat kerja lama kat sini. Even if saya rasa nak yg lebih lagi dari sekrg tp sabarkan hati jela. Seriously I'm looking something that makes me statisfied. I want more more more more experience in my head. Syukurla sebab kerja sekarang tak seberat mana pun. Still consider average. Xsusah dan x senang. Apapun congrats to myself. Well done...u confirm again and do not think to leave again for this 2 year. Hehehe...

Hati berbunga-bunga..heh

Dah lama tak berperasaan semacam ni, rasa geli dgn diri sendiri pun ada juga. Rasanya sgt lama semenjak break up dgn kekasih lama. Ada juga dlm 3 thn single ni. Tetapi secara tiba2 dan tanpa di pinta...perasaan berbunga2 dlm hati ni muncul kembali. Jeng jeng jeng...siapakah gerangannya manusia yg boleh buat hati saya dup dap dup dap , berbunga2 dan buat saya selalu senyum2 ni. Hehehe..kat office saya ada sorg mamat cute. Jadi rapat dgn dia sebab he the one yg jadi my partner as birthday organizer. Sebab selalu discuss dan gaduh pasal birthday party tu saya rasa saya seronok dan selesa dgn dia. Some more, dia mcm caring, funny and jujur. Last week we did not talking with each other. Lps tu mmg jarang nampak dia wlwpn kami satu office. Selalu dia lalu saya perasan tp xtau napa last week and this week xsgt perasan kewujudan dia and because of this, I feel like a truly miss him. Hahaha...geli hati dengan perasaan sendiri. Honestly, saya selalu pandang tempat duduk dia tp x nampk dia. Isk isk...miss him(gatal kikiki). And today...as usual pagi2 saya akan curi2 pandang meja dia and I did't see him. Suddenly dlm 4.30 ptg tu dia lalu meja saya and he said "hai airen?" Sambil pandang saya dgn mata dia and dgn senyuman dia and then dgn muka pucat dia. Alololo...so cute, hampir saja saya melompat kegembiraan. Tiba2 rasa stress sebab keje bertimbun hilang serta merta. Dan dgn tu juga saya senyum2 sampai sekrg. Hurm...I'm falling in love. So geli hati dgn perasaan mcm ni, masa muda yela boleh berperasaan mcm ni tp dh tua ni mcm xsesuai la pula. Hahahha...napa dia tegur saya mcm tu? He miss me too ke? Ooo duhai hati. Hihi..he too cute to be true. R

Nak jadi Boss

Aku teringin nak jadi  boss..nak ada company sendiri..nak manage company sendiri. ..nak ada org bawahan sendiri. Argh!!!! Bila agaknya jadi kenyataan??? Dulu2 aku teringin nak buka kedai kasut jenama sendiri...niat ni masih ada cuma sekarang lebih kuat untuk buka restoran sendiri pula. Bayangkan aku duduk dekat kaunter pembayaran sambil senyum2 tengok pelanggan yg ramai sedang menikmati makanan. Pergh..mcm best pula. Hahahaha. Kalau aku nak buka restoran aku nak buka restoran masakan thai, chinese food dan juga tradisional sabahan food. Setiap malam sebelum tidur, aku membayangkan aku jadi boss yang baik. Aduiyai bilalah dapat jadi boss ni.

Haze..

Air polution...KL dilanda jerebu. KL hazing!!!!. Oleh yg sedemikian..aku dpt sore throat, fever...dan mengalami keradangan kulit. I hope this haze berlalu cepat...sgt2 x selesa.

Comment

Lately...I dun feel like to post status or update my fb status. Dah B.O.R.I.N.G ... tak di nafikan my fb 24 hour  and 7 day on. I just scroll my fb friend status and hit like. Kalau rajin memang comment la. My friend suggest me to open new account of Istagram. So I pun buatla. Not bad la instagram...I just can update my fb status using ista photo. Anyway...I always post food photo or kucing so one of my friend comment. "Napa u tak camwhoring, buat duck face ke?". Bila I baca comment ni serius I was laughing too loud. To be honest..I love to take myself photo but since I'am too fat and my skin became worst becoz of pigmentation and blackhead, my confidence became lower to take my own photo..it's yucky and I don wan others see my ugly face. Kalau confidence level I higher pun..I will never take photo with duck face style. Not my style and I don knw how to do it. Hahahaha...

Anroid

Wah...long time no update my blog entry. No issue to blog or what?? Ada saja issue malah  too many stories that I want to wrote down here tapi unluckily...I too lazy to on my laptop and bla bla. I online guna mobile phone saja sekarang. Apa yg I nak ckp is anroid awesome...last time I don't want to used anroid phone. Tapi tak guna jgn byk ckp kn...so I pun try and it's awesome. And now I can blogging with my mobile phone. It's cool!@

Hak

Ahad ni mengundi!!!

1st time mengundi ni..

Tunaikan tanggungjawab dan hak anda sebagai rakyat Malaysia.

Hidup!!! Hidup!!!

Amacam?? ada bakat untk menjadi YB tak i?

hehehe...gurau sajalah.

Bercakap pasal HAK ni...semua orang ada hak tau.

Setiap manusia tu berhak untuk marah, kecewa dan gembira.

Someone makes me mad.

Of course aku marah weiii..

asal dahi aku ada cop tak berhak untuk marah meh??

huhuhu..kalaulah si ' Dia' membaca blog ni kan bagus.

:P

 

Salute Nora Danish

 

Nora Danish...

aku kenal dia sebagai seorang pelakon comel masa zaman kegemilangan drama Puteri di TV3.

Tak dapat di nafikan beliau seorang yang comel. Bagi aku dulu dia comel sekarang dia jadi cantik dan dewasa. 

semalam...aku buka laman gosip rotikaya. Aku terkejut gler sebab ternampak gambar nora dengan rayqal melawat fasha sandha dan bayi dia.

salute dan respect gler dgn dia. cekal sungguh hati dia untuk berbuat demikian dan berdepan dengan semua tu. Salute sgt2..bkn semua wanita boleh berbuat mcm ni. Bila nampak pic dia..hati aku mcm pedih jer sebab 1st aku kasihan dengan Nora ni bila teringat dia tgh mengandung dan suami pula ada org lain. Setahu aku wanita pregnant ni sgt2lah memerlukan sang suami di sisi dia. Tak sanggup aku membayangkan yg nora melahirkan rayqal dan habis pantang dgn automatik jatuh talak dkt dia. Sgt kasihan.!!!!. 2nd, aku kasihan dengan rayqal..sebab dia budak kecik lg, dia lahir jer mak ayah dia bercerai. lps tu mak ayah dia gilir2 menjaga dia...mesti dia terpinga2 juga tu napa mak ayah dia x duduk sama2. The worst thing, kasihan dkt rayqal bila rasa terpinggir pula nanti. 

Aku bukan peminat tegar Nora Danish sebenarnya, cuma tak ramai wanita yang sanggup menolak tepi rasa marah, kecewa dan benci dengan seseorang yang dianggap sebagai perosak rumah tangga or org ketiga dan mengambil keputusan untuk berbaik dengan org tersebut.

aku x adalah cakap Fasha tu perampas cuma pokok tu takkan bergoyang hebat kalau tak ada angin atau monyet dok lompat2 kat dahan pokok tu kan.

Apapun..i wish all the best and God bless to Nora danish. semoga dia terus tabah, cekal dan bertemu dengan jodoh yg 2 kali lebih baik daripada sebelumnya. Kesabaran itu pasti akan dibalas...

setiap perbuatan pasti ada nilainya.

Salute! salute!

Bertahan

What wrong with me??

Baru saja kerja tapi dah bermacam-macam dalam otak ni.

"Nak berhenti".."ada orang offer lagi better dari sekarang"

Inilah monolog dalam hati aku sekarang. Napa mesti rasa mcm ni.

Seriously..aku agak kecewa juga dengan keputusan terburu2 saya untuk terus terima offer kerja sini..

Aku juga sangat menyesal sebab aku setuju masuk kerja seawal tu..sebab apa sebab ada byk lagi company dok panggil aku interview.

bukan company kecil2 tu...apalah nasib

Sekarang aku kena peringatkan diri aku.

bertahan!! bertahan!! pasti boleh