Missing you

Missing someone so much..can't deny it anymore. It's makes me feel like I'm drowning into a very deep sea water. My soul became empty and bitter. Don't know why I keep missing that person.
Dear old me...I really missing you. I don't know something keep disturbing me. It's look like I'm doing lot of bad thing in my past. So it's keep me missing my old self.
Guys don't get me wrong..zaman kanak2 and remaja saya is fantastic, enjoyable and happy. Just..just...arghh really hard to explain this feeling btw.
Maybe I had done something horrible, stupid or crazy that time but I'm not sure what is it. I'm insane is it??

Warm welcome 2014

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE...

Hola 2014,

Wah..time goes to fast. This year my age become 26 year old. Gosh I really hate being old. As everyone else..I also wish that my life would be good. Hope that I will more focus on my goal this year. Too many target that I can't do last year. I hope this year my life start improve from so so to be much better than ever.
Thanks God for the blessed and anugerah that He give to me. Really love it walaupun sederhana tapi ia nya sempurna.
Resolution for this year..definitely to makes money. Buy some property for myself (hope can do it). Lebih banyak buat kebajikan kepada org ramai, bkn sebab utk mendapat nama tapi utk kemuliaan Tuhan. Then..berdisiplin byr loan PTPTN ( last year sgt jarang bayar). Then..lebih beri perhatian kepada my parents. Argh..too many resolution and I can write it down one by one here. Uh oh...I want to find my soulmate. Cuz I targeting to get married on my age 27. Lol...

Dear 2013,

Thanks for being nice with me. Can't count my happiness time. Thanks God for the beautiful blessing and plan.

Stab my back or I stab u back

I love to be me...be humble..be caring..be love..be motivated..be giving..be smiley..be laugh..be good. Honestly, I really care what people would describe me with my image and my complicated personality. Kalau boleh, I dun want people labeling me as berlagak, sombong, bajet good good je. I Don't want to be fake. I love to be real me.
Tapi some of situation sangat mendesak saya untuk menjadi org lain...a different version of me. Damn it!. Let me tell u something...ada manusia yg suka tikam belakang org terutama dlm hal kerja. U pung pang ping do all the work alone but she or he claim that everything done by them. And you seems like doing nothing. Can u see that?? So before they stab u back better u cover u back with something nice and better. Be prepare...at least keep a few bahan bukti to prove that u do all the work. Being adult and working life is hard...but this is u reality. Nak x nak..kena hadap juga. My dad teach me to be patience..be kind with other altough they be bad to you. Show them love..God say love u enemy.

Kontot

Are u stress?? Oh no...we're in the same boat.
Saya ada a lil bit solution for this. U try pelihara kucing. Confirm stress u akan release sikit.
Last 3 week ago...saya mengambil seekor anak kucing serbian. Tak tahu macam mana boleh bertentang mata dengan anak2 kucing tu. Honestly, saya sangat2 mempersoalkan diri saya. Saya perlukan kucing lagi??? Si parsian tu kan ada. First sekali saya ignore perasaan teringin tu. Bila sampai rumah...makan tak kenyang, nak mandi pun tak basah. Haizz..terpaksa patah balik ke kedai haiwan tu.
Plan awal nak ambil kucing mata biru berbulu tengkuk hitam tu. Tapi pusing2 lagi kedai apek tu...terjumpalah si messy. Comel saja duduk mkn. Diam saja berbanding kucing2 lain yang bising meow meow. Hampir sejam juga dalam kedai tu...taukeh kedai tu siap kenalkan sekor2 kucing dia.
Lepas tu pandang kucing messy tu. Dia senyap saja sambil main bola kecil dalam kandang dia. Alahai..kucing ni senyap je. Bolehlah jadi geng si parsi tu. Lepas tu decided ambil dia.
Bawa balik rumah. 1 rumah dia pusing untuk mengenal rumah baru katakan. Masa dia pusing2 tu terperasan dia tu kontot. Saya gelak lepas tu panggil dia kontot. Masa kenalkan kontot dengan si parsi tu..amboi parsi tarik muka lepas tu blah g makan. Geram je dengan parsi tu. Makan lebih..tidur lebih..main kurang. Sombong betul dia dengan housemate baru dia.
Serius parsi tu dia tak pernah nak manja2 dengan saya. Yg dia tau makanan dia mesti ada. Tapi kontot ni kan...sgt manja..mengada2 tapi saya sgt suka. Saya nak g mandi dia ikut dan tunggu kat tepi pintu. Lepas tu kalau dia nak makan dia nak saya teman. Haha. Pagi2 jam 6 mesti naik atas badan saya suruh bangun.  Comel saja dia. Geram pun ada kdg2 sebab dia sgt2 lasak. Sampai wayar mouse laptop saya pun putus dibuatnya. Haizz...lasak sungguh. Beza benar dengan si parsi..parsi yg dia tau makan tidur saja. Dan yang paling kelakar tak pernah tengok kucing2 ni duduk sama2. Hahahah