Bertudung

First of all..I'm so sorry to write an entry like this. Saya Tak ada attention lain, ya I realize who am I to talk bout it, I not even a muslimah. I just want to share what I saw and what I listen.
Alkisahnya begini...petang tadi masa tunggu tren,ada dua org mak cik saling berbisik2 sambil jeling2 gadis bertudung yg duduk sebelah dorang. Ala kita tau la tu dorang tengah soseh2 pasal gadis sebelah tu. For 1st time I saw, dalam hati bermonolog "apalah mak cik dua org ni tgh bisik2?" Saya perhati gadis tu pula..Hurm seems like nothing wrong with her, why the mak cik really kepoh one. A few minutes later tren sampai so semua naik. Kebetulan saya berdiri depan mak cik dua org tu and the gadis tadi berdiri sebelah saya. Her perfume..gosh sangat wangi.to be honest love her Smell. And then saya perhati mak cik dua org tu lagi. Masih lagi x habis2 bisik2, gelak2 and then always ckp kuat2 mcm menyindir.
I heard them said "x Malu bagi org lain Tgo aurat dia". To be honest..saya ingat dia talk bout me, yala saya kan pakai skirt and lengan pendek. Dalam hati dah start emo dah. Lepas tu I perasan gadis sebelah saya tu mcm rimas Dan balik2 mencebik. A few minutes later gadis tu tiba2 melenting Dan ckp "sibuk Hal orang, mengumpat tu sama dengan membunuh"...Lepas dia ckp mcm tu dia beralih tempat Jauh sikit. Lepas tu sorang daripada mak cik soseh2 tu menyahut. "Kita Tak mengata pun...tulah lain Kali xpayah pakai tudung tu". And then gadis tu menjawab lagi "ko tu malaikat Sgt la...pakai tudung tp mulut mcm puaka". I was in middle of them...blur xtau apa yg dh terjadi. Orang dlm tren almost Chinese pn terpinga.
And then gadis tu dh Geram sangat dia pusingkan belakang dia. And then I was like a lil bit surprise la. Oo baru saya faham kenapa mak cik ni bisik2, rupa2nya gadis tu pakai baju transparents, dah tu Lupa pakai singlet dalam. Nampak jelas color bra dia merah. What wrong kalau dia pakai baju color krim yg transparent?? Do u aware that earlier of this entry I have mentioned that she is gadis bertudung. And as I know..the way she wearing baju like that is so not suitable.
Saya ada ramai kawan2 muslimah yg bertudung and they are lovely. I may not fully understand the hukum but as they told me(I have ask them) menutup aurat is kewajipan. Correct me of I wrong dear friends. For me..gadis tu perlu sensitive dengan pemilihan baju dia, somemore please put ur respect to ur tudung. Saya tengok mmg x sesuai sebab u cover u hair but then u show u back and even u body. Okay..maybe today she wake up late and then terlupa pakai singlet or inner. Tapi x ada ke kawan2 dia tegur?. At least bagitau her baju too striking and then pinjamkan dia sweater or kardigan or selendang untuk dia tutup badan dia.
Dalam tgh Kalut2 ..tiba2 ada seorang mak cik free hair amik selendang dia dari her bag and hulur to that girl. I can see the girl almost tearing..1st place dia tolak and then mak cik free hair tu berkeras juga and then she take and wear the selendang. So touching bila tengok ni..the mak cik free hair dari td Baca buku saja tp rupa2nya she listen everything.
Everyone on the tren was silent. I learn something today from this scene. Take action! When someone talk non stop bout something but did not take action it's was nothing. when u mouth close but ur heart listen and u take action it was amazing. Mak cik dua orang tu suppose baling batu depan2 secara lembut. Cara macam ni lagi menusuk kalbu daripada baling batu belakang2 and then kasar. I dun know bout ur but I prefer orang tegur kesilapan saya secara depan2 Dan Bukan secara kasar.
Conclusion is please aware bout u attire..don't make people gossiping bout that, make it suitable. Do not talk bad bout people..we do not what she facing this morning. If can't Tahan to watch..why not go and tell her properly. This is no use to sindir2 and hurt other feeling. Be kind..take action.

***sorry again if entry ni menyinggung anda..no hard feeling.

Pencarian calon suami

Yes it's true...tajuk entry saya x salah hahaha. To be honest, I feel a bit tension when my parents bug me with this. Setiap Kali call cerita pasal kawan2 kampung or sekolah dah bertunang,kawin or dah beranak. Alaaa..u knew it too, dorg bagi hint Kat saya. Ya I aware bout that but what to do if I really dun have any. Kalau saya balik kampung pun..certain of orang kampung pun yang prihatin terhadap diri ni akan Tanya. "So how..bila?". Aiyoo..jawapan selamat saya is "belum ada lagi, just help to pray".  Dun get me wrong ya..saya below 30 tapi memandangkan culture Kat kampung tu anak2 gadis kawin before 30 so kena hadap la dengan Benda mcm ni.
Makanya..dengan tu saya start sekarang ingin mencari calon suami. Hahaha. Slow slow la kan..Tak de la sampai nak berhusband terus main YES I DO je. Criteria saya simple je.
1. Ada kerja tetap x kira gomen or swasta. Kalau ada bisness sendiri yg dh stabil tu kira bonus k.
2. Menghormati Dan penyayang kepada anak2 and org tua.
3. Bertolak ansur.
4. Membimbing saya dalam soal agama.
5. Kalau semua di atas tu dah ada tapi candidate pula beragama lain, kenalah bagi tunjuk ajar,teladan Dan semangat untuk saya memahami agama tersebut. Saya x nak convert kerana perkahwinan. Takut nanti Lepas kawin saya apa pun x tau...Lepas tu confuse Dan tu kan boleh rosakkan diri saya.

Walau apa pun...I just surrender to God. Hopefully I meet someone.

*Malu pula saya buat entry ni. Hahahahah

What I hate most

Selain daripada lintah dan cicak terbang..Benda yang paling saya benci dalam dunia ini ialah manusia SELFISH!!!!.
Golongan ini bagi pandangan saya ialah orang low class,tidak ada civik Dan tamadun.
Golongan yang bertamadun macam saya yang selalu menjadi mangsa kepada golongan selfish ni..wtf!.
In my workplace memang wujud manusia ini. Teringin nak terajang kuat2 pun ada juga. Teringin sangat nak maki orang tu tapi sebab jaga maruah sendiri Dan maruah orang tu so x maki. Sudahlah selfish, kuat mengampu pula tu..memang saya tensionlah.
Oleh yang sedemikian, saya bertekad untuk tidak bercakap Dengan si perempuan selfish tu. Totally pissed me off wtf!
By the way..i'm officially looking for the jobs. Too much la my superior. Tau nganga Saja. User cakap mcm ni dia setuju...x review langsung flow dia. Title job saya BI analyst and specialist...bukannya specialist admin. Haihhh...ni kena print,courier Dan sort data guna excel pula. Dah la project byk Kat tangan. Lepas tu kena deal dengan CTOS,BNM Dan CCRIS..sepatutnya user yg kena deal tapi Aku juga kena. Barbie!!!

Missing you

Missing someone so much..can't deny it anymore. It's makes me feel like I'm drowning into a very deep sea water. My soul became empty and bitter. Don't know why I keep missing that person.
Dear old me...I really missing you. I don't know something keep disturbing me. It's look like I'm doing lot of bad thing in my past. So it's keep me missing my old self.
Guys don't get me wrong..zaman kanak2 and remaja saya is fantastic, enjoyable and happy. Just..just...arghh really hard to explain this feeling btw.
Maybe I had done something horrible, stupid or crazy that time but I'm not sure what is it. I'm insane is it??

Warm welcome 2014

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE...

Hola 2014,

Wah..time goes to fast. This year my age become 26 year old. Gosh I really hate being old. As everyone else..I also wish that my life would be good. Hope that I will more focus on my goal this year. Too many target that I can't do last year. I hope this year my life start improve from so so to be much better than ever.
Thanks God for the blessed and anugerah that He give to me. Really love it walaupun sederhana tapi ia nya sempurna.
Resolution for this year..definitely to makes money. Buy some property for myself (hope can do it). Lebih banyak buat kebajikan kepada org ramai, bkn sebab utk mendapat nama tapi utk kemuliaan Tuhan. Then..berdisiplin byr loan PTPTN ( last year sgt jarang bayar). Then..lebih beri perhatian kepada my parents. Argh..too many resolution and I can write it down one by one here. Uh oh...I want to find my soulmate. Cuz I targeting to get married on my age 27. Lol...

Dear 2013,

Thanks for being nice with me. Can't count my happiness time. Thanks God for the beautiful blessing and plan.